As exhausted as I am, I can't seem to fall asleep. (Actually I kinda took a 10 minute nap and was awaken by a door slamming shut.) Not sure whether there's too many things going through my head or I am subconsciously feeling anxious because finals is here and my first paper is tomorrow. But I don't feel it, not consciously.
Instead of laying in bed willing my tired mind to shut the fuck up, I decided to turn on my laptop to watch an episode of Community as I devour two packets of crackers along with a cup of hot chocolate. Now I feel warm and somewhat sleepy. Hopefully putting thoughts down into words will help lull me to sleep because running on 3 hours of sleep followed by a Just Dance 4/Guitar Hero session and full on study afternoon is not fun.
Maybe looking through old photos before bed wasn't such a good idea.
“I know what it feels like, and it sucks, it really does, when you are up in the middle of the night thinking about the things that you’ve suddenly became aware of. The things you’re missing out on right now, and all the people who are not close to you anymore, and all of the good times that will never happen again, and all the people who have meant the world to you who have forgotten about you forever, and you get this awful feeling that’s kind of like a mix between loneliness and nostalgia.”
- Abraham M. Alghanem, Summer & Autumn
Till then,
Knock me out.
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