Finale

Future self,

This is a reminder to yourself that yes, education is vital and that finals is important, but at the same time, you should take a step back and chill out from time to time. As long as you have prepared and covered 80% of the syllabus, including key topics, you should go out and have fun because you will eventually burn out from all of those afternoon study sessions that require a large quantity of coffee. Remember the day before Sociology where you met up with Shaq instead of studying for Arts. Also, the night before Sociology where you celebrated Sheena's birthday. Remember that you did all of those things and you still did fine. Remember to relax because stressing out will lead you nowhere. Instead of stressing out, channel all of that energy into studying because hey, at least you're productive.

For future reference: Life Skill Mastered: Procrastination

Till then,
Less than 24 hours to freedom.

Shut Up

As exhausted as I am, I can't seem to fall asleep. (Actually I kinda took a 10 minute nap and was awaken by a door slamming shut.) Not sure whether there's too many things going through my head or I am subconsciously feeling anxious because finals is here and my first paper is tomorrow. But I don't feel it, not consciously.

Instead of laying in bed willing my tired mind to shut the fuck up, I decided to turn on my laptop to watch an episode of Community as I devour two packets of crackers along with a cup of hot chocolate. Now I feel warm and somewhat sleepy. Hopefully putting thoughts down into words will help lull me to sleep because running on 3 hours of sleep followed by a Just Dance 4/Guitar Hero session and full on study afternoon is not fun.

Maybe looking through old photos before bed wasn't such a good idea.

“I know what it feels like, and it sucks, it really does, when you are up in the middle of the night thinking about the things that you’ve suddenly became aware of. The things you’re missing out on right now, and all the people who are not close to you anymore, and all of the good times that will never happen again, and all the people who have meant the world to you who have forgotten about you forever, and you get this awful feeling that’s kind of like a mix between loneliness and nostalgia.”

- Abraham M. Alghanem, Summer & Autumn

Till then,
Knock me out.