Love Letter to Yi Peng

I know I haven’t posted a makeup tutorial or anything in ages although I have to say, I’ve been enjoying highlighters these days. My skin is oily as hell but I’ve come to embrace it. I don’t even use a face powder anymore. Yes to glowy skin.

But this post isn’t meant to be of me rambling about my skin. It’s supposed to be for you, Adrienne.  So here it goes *inhales*:

There’s a reason why I was probably the only one who didn’t write you a letter. It didn’t hit me yet. I mean, I could go on and on about our adventures, our dates, our gossip seshs. All the time we hung out – but you know how it was, how they were; you were there, you’ve read the little messages of me missing you that I’ve dropped here and there. What else could I have said? You know I’m grateful for everything.

But how about AFTER you left? 

I couldn't write that down in a letter because it hadn't happened yet.

When it did, I felt like the whole time driving to the airport, my heart chipped bit by bit. Sure I cried when we hugged and stopped when you headed down the escalator. I thought, yeah, I’m over it. She’ll be fine. I’ll be fine.

But it hit me like a thrown basketball to the boobs when we exited the airport. You were my first real mate in college and I could count on you to be around if ever I had to let out anything, but in the end I had to watch you go. AUP’s a bitch.

Suddenly, my heart felt empty. I felt empty. Eurica told me to do something fun, something that would make me happy. No piercing, vegan food, lipstick, Starbucks Green Tea Cream Chip, drives, walks could fix it – yes, yes, I did all the above. All in the matter of, what, 5 hours after you left?

Your postcard made me smile, though. I showed Aisar the bottom part and he said he wanted to cry. He’s made sure the seat next to mine in MPW class would be his and no one else. Ha ha ha ha…

And then Tash said that sometimes you have to share the best people with the world and I could admit it might be a bit selfish of me but I’d like to sigh and disagree. I don’t know what voodoo spell you girls have put into our conversations and lured me in because damn, I’ve gotten so clingy over the past year.

You’re probably the coolest person I know and I know you said that my life is interesting but it only is – have been lately – because of you. I’m glad we had that second lunch together in the first semester. I’ve learnt a lot ever since.

(And for Adrienne’s usual readers, you might think this post is irrelevant or you’d probably relate if you’ve ever had to say goodbye to someone who means a lot) (Don’t get mad at me) (I’m never usually this big of a soppy drama queen) (Because chillest)

But let us wish her a good luck as she rocks the fashion industry in the US of A. You bet she will. We'll expect a lot of fashion posts when she settles down. Hopefully.

And if I do miss you a little more than necessary, I'll get around to finishing up all the movies you included in the pendrive. I'm only four movies in as of now and they've all been up my street. Oh, you know me so well...

(Love you, my homegirl with the biggest ass of us all)

The Whitney to your Ray,

Marini Ash x